If you meditate, you may know of the momentary pause that exists between the inhale and exhale. It is a sacred space between thoughts. It opens the gateway to the underlying reality of pure consciousness, beyond the grip of the thinking mind.
Athletes and artists touch this place when they are surrendered to their task and time dissolves. The sense of separate self is gone. All that exists is the perfection of what is. Lovers revel here, as life feels perfect and whole. It is as though a million-watt bulb had just turned on and everything has bloomed into technicolour. Heroes are fueled by this when they throw all caution to the wind and dive into a seemingly impossible situation. In the momentary death of their ego, they expand into the realm of eternal possibility.
When you unearth yourself from the burden of limiting thoughts, you discover that in the perfect now, you have all you need. You begin to live in “I am” consciousness, that is, in the flow of pure consciousness arising. This is not dependent on thoughts like “I am a doctor. I am a mother. I am a swimmer. I am an artist,” etc. You are simply “I am.” When you add descriptions after that simple truth, you add an I-dentity, a label, a story over what is. You become identified with your actions, rather than rooted in surrendered being.
We are human beings, not human doings. Our truest value is in our beingness. Though we may do beautiful or horrific things, our inherent goodness lies beyond them. We are born of the infinite. To the infinite we must return.
The very energy of life is dynamic. We hold on tightly to the notion of “doing”. We grab onto some sense of solidity, some sense of control, some sense that we, our perception of a divided self, matters. From that perspective, we fear that if we were to simply be, we would turn into a puddle and do nothing – or be nothing – and fail to exist. We fear we would not know how to even get out of bed in the morning because we would melt into an amorphous oblivion.
But as you let go of the idea of I-dentity, the I-dea of being an I-solated I-sland, separate, fighting for a sense of self-importance, you touch a sacred dance that has been carrying you all along. You then see that the fear of doing nothing, if you were to let go of the idea that you are the doer, is in fact not at all possible, because all that is, is dancing. When you are in non-resistance to what is, you are like a cosmic dancer within life’s sacred unfolding.
When you live on auto-pilot and do not question the nature of reality, you believe that you are the doer. You believe you are in control, in charge, creating your life. But do you really have control? Perhaps it seems so, for limited times. You may feel you made it this far and got the job you wanted or you succeeded at completing a daunting task. You may feel proud until you find yourself fired from your job or your task starts to go awry.
When you pause, when you open, when you begin to truly see, you feel immense power in the reality that you have no control, not because you are not powerful, but because you are powerful beyond belief. You have no need for a finite sense of control. You see that the idea of “I” is finite, a limited lens through which you see life, but is not the whole picture. You begin to understand that “I am” is more than enough. It is all that is.
For more on how to experience “I Am” presence, please try this month’s meditation, entitled “The Vibrant Space of I Am”.
Parvati is an award-winning musician (“I Am Light”, “Electro Yog”, “Yoga In The Nightclub”), yogini (YEM: Yoga as Energy Medicine), author (“The Grace Mindset”, “Aonani of Avalon”, “The Three Supreme Secrets for Lasting Happiness”) and founder of the not-for-profit Parvati.org. All her work is dedicated to protecting all life on Earth by establishing the Marine Arctic Peace Sanctuary (MAPS). More info: parvati.tv; parvati.org.